T.T

before i post it :

I wish :
She would read it,
especially the ITALIC part at the end of blog,
that's what inside my heart and my mind want me to type it out..

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Monday , Raining , Mood : Very FANN ( sketch,work,homework..)

Event : after dropping her to her Faculty , go back to room , packing , then go class .

Event : during the lecture, wanna bring friend to cut hair, gotta rush,lecture finish at 2 ,
go back take car then will be 2.20 go out.

Event : fucking HTC got problem, cant contact HER, straight go cut hair without informing,
only a msg sent to HER that i will go out , she got lab at that time , no reply .
promised to bring HER along , but i didn't .

Event : ppl that i fetch included a GIRL , that SHE said b4 , in her opinion , is a pretty one,
for me , not me, all our friends , she is just like our brother , I CAN SWEAR!!!!!
I believe that I got no feeling on her and I told everything clearly , SHE just don't
beLIEve me.

Event : I bring them to cut hair , I go Bank settle some money matters, after that , go to
find the cut hair gang , i found a parking after seeking for some rounds , RAINING ,
inside the car , i cal her again after receiving some msg including hers.

Event : during i driving , i got call everyone, my phone signal show no service , no line ,
very pek cek! Dunno how to fix it , restart n times, finally ok, phone can't receive
any msg , after restart only receive those msg , SHE thought my phone no battery.

Event : I hungry , didn't eat breakfast n lunch ,i call her,SHE is sleeping,then she say
just finish LAB,i told her that i will eat McD , SHE say : i thought you say wanna
bring me go ? then i told her wat happen to my phone , then SHE ask who got go , i
mentioned some names , SHE got no response , until i mentioned the 'PRETTY' "GAL"
name, she say : Oh, got bring her go is it? B'cuz bring her go so You DON'T WANT
bring me go la.. I told her the phone thing, SHE say : You don't know how to
borrow phone from friends and call me?? she then off the phone call..

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Feeling at that moment :

then i msg her ,

i told her that i very upset ,

why everytime also wanna relate my friends ( i mean girls ) to whatever I do that SHE think that is not ok to her...

she ask me not to reply , she don't wanna see doctor and don't wanna eat medicine .

in my opinion, this is not a good example , no matter how u angry , never ever do something that will harm your health , not matured , i am not really like this kind of prerogative..
i told her many many times..

she gimme back my advice,
(T.T)..........
I really very HEART PAIN !!!!!!!!!!!

I wonder ..
Do I need to break up every friendship with every girls ?
Is this The ONly way that will make her TRUST me ?
What happen if i become a gay later ?
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Currently,
I have to manage my business , my homework , my uni activities , and
I wanna spend time with my sweetheart too..

My heart got you,
You don't know??
I told You THE SECRET before..
so i really wish to stop those stupid thinking..
we LOVE each other.
I am learning to think at your side.
I know you are learning to do the same thing to me too.

what we are doing now is very dangerous ..
remember the SECRET that i told you ,
anything might happen,
just like me,
B'cuz of THE SECRET ,
i managed to earn some glory in Ins. ,
i managed to enter UKM to meet you ,
just like when form 5 in Taman Ehsan ,
we continue in UKM too!!

before i post it :

I wish :
She would read it,
especially the ITALIC part at the end of blog,
that's what inside my heart and my mind want me to type it out..

I LOVE YOU ! ms. Sw33tHeraT =)